I have an identity crisis. It begins deep down and trickles out all the way to the ends of my hair.
I like to pretend that I am a tall and tan, blue-eyed brunette.
When really, I am average height, white and freckled, with gray eyes and grayish-brown hair.
In my attempts to cover up the unsightly gray, I flounder from one box of color to the next. I think I chose a more natural color this time, thankfully, because that last color was WAY too coppery. And fake looking.
And now, for the last 5 months, my contacts have decided to go AWOL on me! Every time I wear them, my eyes start bugging out and turn all red and itchy. So, instead of having blue eyes, I have red eyes. Maybe I'm allergic to my contacts. Who knows! All I know is that I'm vain and don't like wearing my glasses.
Oh vanity! What pride!
Is this the bane of all womanhood? To wish you were something different?
We are not meant to live this way.
"The real test of being in the presence of God is that you either forget about yourself altogether or see yourself as a small, dirty object. It is better to forget about yourself altogether" (C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity).