Thursday, June 4, 2009


Why did I do this to myself?

Y'all, I have been avoiding this blog for the last week as if it's the Black Plague.

I have even started dreading sitting down at the computer.

I was getting all geared up (and even kinda excited in a weird sorta way) to dive into some personal stuff, dig up some dirt, expose some weaknesses... so, why this squeamishness all of a sudden?
Am I still slighty ashamed? Could be.
Am I slightly skeered? It's possible.

And yet, there is still this urge in me to blog about it because, well, I have found freedom from those nasty skeletons that kept trying to live in my closet.

I am pondering what my next step should be.

If you would do me a favor and vote on my poll (see that HUGE thing!) about this issue, I would appreciate it.

I'm not saying that my mind could be swayed by the majority's rule, but I want to know it anyway.

Did I tell you that I miss my hair? I know, totally random.
See how long and lustrous it was?

I may or may not have been picking my nose. Thanks a lot hubby!!!

Now my hair is shorter by 4 inches and curly and sassy but still shorter and well, I can't stop thinking that I have "Mom Hair" now. Oh well, such is life.

~christa jean


Youthful One said...

I honestly thought the pic was of you wiping a tear from your eye. And where's the after pic? (I'm sure everybody is going to rave at how adorable your hair is!)

I think you should blog about it only because it confirms your freedom.

Revelation 12:11 (King James Version)
11And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.

The word of your testimony is not just powerful to minister to everybody else, but powerful for you to really overcome.

I ran into the same hesitation when I chose to drop my former identity. I made the commitment with God, felt a certain freedom, even shared it with a few people and felt healed and free. But I knew if I didn't follow through and 'make it public', then I wasn't truly free.

I know your story is different, and about different issues.

I don't recommend making public details that are too private - and, of course, that is completely up to you. Because I don't know what details you are debating about, I agree with the 'generalization' thing. I didn't vote that way, though, as I want to encourage you to grab onto your freedom and not allow the enemy to keep hidden what he did to you.

Janelle said...

Share whatever is on your heart to share... years ago I heard a definition to "walking in the light" that I never forget and love, cause that is my desire! "Being willing to know, and be known" So, walk in the light as He is in the light! In my experience, God has led me into deeper fredom in Him, and helped me to put even further behind me what was not of Him, by putting it into words and eventually blogging it. (See "Confessions and Repentings of a Recovering Virtuous Woman" on my blog.)Thank God He knows how to lead us through to freedom in Him! Go for it!

The Everett Family said...

What? When did you cut your hair? Tell me it wasn't cut last week? Share what you feel comfortable sharing. No matter what you write you will be loved. The past is gone. You are healed and you live today. That is all that matters.

Kathi said...

I think it is good to share. We can pray with you. I agree about being careful about details, but I do think it's good to share your heart. I'm sure your hair is so pretty. Kathi