When we lost our baby in February, we were met with such an astounding amount of support. People brought us meals, gave us money, gift cards, flowers and more. My heart still wells up with gratitude when I think of the love and generosity shown to us during that sorrowful time.
Now, it has been over 3 months that my husband has been unemployed. This is the longest amount of time he has ever been out of work and believe me when I say, men need to be the providers. It is innate in their being. When there is no job to include in his identity, who is he? It is easier, at these times, to believe the lies that come sneaking in... lies that whisper "You're no good, you have a poor work ethic, what a failure you are, what a loser of a man."
Thankfully, by the grace of God, we know the truth and the truth sets us free to believe in something greater. A greater plan. A deeper knowing. A calmer abiding.
A broader horizon. A stronger trust. A truer faith. A sweeter love.
There has been such a stripping away of all the junk, a deep cleaning in our minds and the beauty is that we are sharing in it together. Our need has driven us to our knees each morning in prayer together. After desiring this to happen for years and years, now it finally has... hm, funny the way it had to happen.
While this has been such a stretching, stressful, trying time, I would not trade it or wish it away.
In fact, my heart overflows with gratitude at the Lord's dealings.
Does not the shaking come so that the gold may shine forth?
I cannot conclude this without mentioning the support we have had once again this year... I just shake my head when I ponder it all.
~ Numerous meals have been brought to us
~ Bags and boxes of groceries left for us
~ Almost every other Sunday, someone hands us a check
~ Gift cards, movie tickets, free babysitting
~ Prayer and encouragement and loads of it!
A bounty of organic produce from our neighbors!!! What a treat!
My cup truly does overfloweth.
I shall not be in want.
"I have been young, and now am old;
Yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken,
Nor his descendants begging bread."
~ Psalm 37:25 ~
~ christa jean